11 months to date. In Merri's NAME! 10/26-11/1, will be painfully difficult!! I was at her side the entire 7 days, all but twice to see my babies, who had never been away from mommy that long!!
One particular night I will forever regret that my ride had picked me up and then was informed that the other shift was not going to be staying the night, one single night, a night that could have protected her from this part alone. My gut feeling knew, and all I could do was express it; as I tried so hard to find a ride back up.
So, painstakingly this night; she was forced to be alone, and this night alone broke her, added dire pain and agony to her, from more medical fuck ups; and she was helplessly all alone, couldn't even call one of us, couldn't see to call even if she had a phone nearby!! Couldn't even see to push nurse button, to get their attention, or in need of help.
RAGE!!!
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ReplyDeleteAnother dream:
ReplyDeleteI remember being in our home. I looked down the hall and realized your bed was empty, realized you were gone and then it tripped me out because I spotted your hair, I looked a little further and saw you by your armor dresser peeking out at me. I began to run down hall to you. This time, if felt like it was your spirit. I ran into your arms and we held each other.
I had 5 hrs sleep night before and after dropping kids at school, laid back down for 2 hrs before attorney meeting. This dream felt different then some of the others. The others it felt like it was actually your whole self, this one it felt as if it was your spirit.