Merry Xmas, Mom!!!

12/21/11 Another vivid dream/encounter:

12/21/11


Another vivid dream/encounter! I wish we could record our dreams!!! Literally!! You can never portray the experience, as vivid and real as it was. And you forget so many specifics in dialogue, especially when you wait till the end of the day to actually write it down, ugh!

It involved all of us. It felt like a direct moment shared with her/message to us. For some time now, I have not been able to think of you, I must look away from pictures, I must divert! It's too unbearable and I must prevail through all that surrounds the kids and I. I haven't had many dreams of you, that I can remember. A few far in-between, light dreams.

To my surprise was this mornings dream/encounter:

It felt as in the present moment. We were in such grief over your loss of life! I remember picking up a phone to contact the church, which had a hospital in it. This is the hospital where you died. I pretended to be an organization wanting to donate to your fund. They said I could. They then advised me that you were still in the hospital and alive, barely holding on, but alive!

I immediately rushed to your room. There you were. Propped up. You were as I last remember. You were deathly sick. Your eyes were closed. I walked in the room and said, Mom. Your eyes opened. I couldn't believe!! This time the life support tube was not in your mouth. I asked where it was. You said it was down there. I said, Oh and we both smirked. You were so faint. Instantly I knew we had a 2nd chance to spend with you, your last hours. I rushed to call everyone! I just laid with you and held and caressed you, kissed you over and over! This time I knew you were dieing, we both knew. This time we got to say all that we needed and wanted. It felt so peaceful this time. Krishna, Jeremy, and all 5 grandkids soon arrived. Dad arrived. In our time of talk before they arrived: I told you how Dad was really hurting, that he really did love you, that he even slept on two of your blankets and didn't want to wash them of your scent. We both felt awe and shared a smile.


I asked where the pain was. You faintly moved your hand around your head, neck, and chest/stomach area. I asked if you were in a lot of pain. You were, but there was a lot of pain medicine too, that was somewhat helping. Even though you were in pain, you were in peace. We were all in peace at this moment, to experience your last hours all over again, in a better way! Oh Mom we talked so much!

Then the rest of the bunch showed up, and everyone got to hug and kiss you over and over. We all talked. Interestingly, Dad held up his lighter and began to smoke a cigarette. We were in shock and about to get upset that he would rub it in, and then he began to laugh. His sense of humor. He was messing around. Then he did go outside to smoke and came back in.

I began to tell you that I met this wonderful lady, she reminded me so much of you. That you both had similar interests and hobbies. How she even looked like you. That her mother came from England. You were in awe of that. I said, this wonderful lady is your sister. You were in shock at first. You shed tears of joy. I then dialed her number and you two spent a while on the phone, catching up. At one point you had a pillow over your face, while talking in private underneath, to her. Then you guys hung up. Over the course of several hours of time together you grew more and more faint. Several times, we thought it was the moment of your passing, and you kept going.. you opened your eyes and faintly spoke and showed us, that you heard us. Then finally as Krish was sharing a story, your eyes began to close, and I looked at you to see if this was it and looking into your eyes, everything went to darkness and I knew!

We then drove to meet at our old home, which interestingly was Krishna's house on Olla St. I arrived first. Everything was dark from the outside and in. I opened the door and walked in. Instantly the back porch light began to flicker, lights began to turn on and off at different points, music began to play in the kids playroom. It was cheerful music. All I could do was smile. I felt such peace and joy. I knew it was you and I knew you were letting us know that you were now in heaven, okay, and in peace. The other's arrived shortly after all of this. It was an awe moment for us all! Krish was a little hesitant, and I pointed everything out and she too, was in awe!

25 Months, In Merri's NAME!!!

7 DAY CHAIN OF EVENTS REPORT THAT LED TO OUR MOTHER'S VERY TRAGIC WRONGFUL DEATH**

On Monday October the 26th 2009- Our mother; 58 yrs young, 3 children, 5 grandchildren: Merri Roberson was admitted to Mountain Vista Hospital. Apache Care facility called 911 when they noticed her lips turning blue (She was at Apache Care Facility since July 2009 due to a broken C2/neck, in the rehab section healing with a special neck brace. They could not due surgery because of the brittle bone disease and because of how high risk it would be). While in the emergency room our mother complained about her right ribs hurting and her neck hurting and we also noticed that her hands were beginning to turn purple. We immediately pointed this out to the ER nurse, shortly after the ER doctor came in and I asked her if there was anything we could do to expedite any testing, her response to me was (in front of my brother Jeremy Roberson and my mother) “you are in the emergency room, this is as expedited as you will get unless you are dying and if your dyeing then well your dying and we give you medicine”. My brother, mother, and I were all in shock. My mom joked about her bedside manner. I was very concerned about this comment!
She was then admitted to a room on the cardiac floor. I left for a brief time to visit with my kids and my brother remained with my mom. When I got back, he advised me that he mentioned to Dr. Anno about having a CT scan done of her neck; considering she was complaining of it hurting worse than normal and since Apache Care facility and Dr. Porter kept giving him the run around and delaying her scheduled follow up exam, regarding this critical matter of her broken c2. Dr. Anno advised my brother that because they admitted her for chest pain, this could not be done; that the insurance would not pay for this test and having the test done there would be pointless because they do not have a neurologist to review the scan. Dr. Anno advised him that once she was discharged from their care, she could have scan done on her way out and they would fax results to her neurologist. I spent the night with her to keep her safe and so she was not alone. I fed her dinner, she was soooo hungry!

On Tuesday October 27th 2009- My mother threw up that morning and it was her dinner from the night before (she hadn’t had breakfast yet). She was put on NPO at this point. They gave her some nausea medicine. They needed to change her brace and I asked if they had a specialist or someone who dealt with C spine. I was advised, no. This concerned me. I carefully watched Nurse Shana, I believe the charge nurse and Nurse Sebastion change the neck brace with the help of my guidance. They didn’t really know what they were doing and either did I. Later in day, Nurse Shana came in and apologized that it was taking her so long and that she did not forget about my mom, but that she was going back and forth with Nurse Sebastion and Dr. Anno regarding the order to give her a gallon of Golytely and the KUB X-ray results. She expressed her deep concern to me and we even got my brother Jeremy on the cell phone to discuss this concern. Nurse Shana did not agree with the order because of the KUB X-ray results. She said it showed that my mother was severely impacted with stool and that an obstruction could not be ruled out and the fact that she threw up her dinner from the night before, was a huge worry to her. I didn’t quite know what all this meant, so she explained in more detail to my brother and I,” that if she has any type of obstruction, any food that goes down into her stomach will have nowhere to go, it will only go back up and this could be very bad/dangerous”! She stated that she recommends us requesting a GI consult first. My brother and I agreed! She left room to advise Doctor Anno of our concerns and request for GI consult first. Nurse Sebastion came in shortly after with Dr. Anno on their cell phone wanting to speak to me. Dr. Anno stated: “she didn’t know what the delay was in getting the Golytely started on my mother, and she seemed very frustrated with the staff, she stated that something needed to be done immediately or it could be very life threatening and again advised that Golytely is the best method”. This scared me and my brother and we both agreed that something did need to be done regarding the impaction but we were deeply concerned with the order for Golytely! I mentioned what Nurse Shana had pointed out to my brother and me regarding the concern her and Sebastiona had regarding the X-ray results showing that an obstruction could not be ruled out. Dr. Anno’s direct response to me was: “there is nothing inconclusive about the results and there was not an obstruction and again advised us that Golytely was the best method and needed to be started immediately”. After she assured me, I said okay, but that we request to have a GI consult ASAP as well. Her rushed response to me was: “yes if need be”. They then came in and put a NG tube down her throat on suction at first (because of the vomit’s earlier) (One major, then minor throw up after she drank some of another laxative, and still feeling nauseous). They then began to administer the Golytely via the NG tube. That night I had to leave around 7pm. My brother and fiancé stayed until 1a.m. We were both concerned that she had to be left alone that night! But our circumstances did not allow for one of us to be there that night. (Something we will forever regret along with many other regrets, and what if’s and if only…ect). My brother text me when they left and I felt deeply worried, I couldn’t go back to sleep. I called to check in on the status very early in the new morning. I spoke with Nurse Seena with a heavy accent, and I asked if there was any bowel movement. I was advised no. This concerned me more. Nearly 24 hours and still nothing! When everyone that talked about Golytely said stool should come out within an hour, few hours at most and keep coming. They described patients being stuck to the toilet and what it was mainly used for (colon cleansing prior to colonoscopy). I requested the on call Doctor call me. They put in a message. Approximately an hour goes by and still nothing and I still couldn’t sleep! I call again; spoke with Nurse Seena several times and was advised that Dr. Anno would call me when she gets in to work and that the on call doctor would not call me. I stated that this was not acceptable and requested to speak with a supervisor. I then spoke with a lady, I believe named Amy, I can’t remember exactly, she said that she would look into this matter and look into things. An enema was ordered and my mother did not really want to be messed with again, she was in so much pain, so she did not want this. My brother then called her explaining the deep need for this enema, so she agreed. I spent the next several hours trying to find a ride to get back up there asap! I had the worst feeling!!!


On Wed October 28th 2009- Upon arrival at approximately 9 a.m. my father and I walk into my mother’s room to find her in major distress! My first observation is that her NG tube was pulled out, and then I noticed that her neck was pointing down in her neck brace. This was a huge concern because the brace could not position itself like that on its own and never have we seen it this way the entire 3 months. The brace was somehow altered and it was put on in a dangerous way!! We now wonder if our mother had thrown up again that night and if they had to take her brace off again to clean. There were major notes to all staff and on her board to call us before any additional moves or changes. I started to panic, asking what the hell happened to her, day Nurse Amber advised me to calm down and that she didn’t know what happened the night before and went out of her way to assure me that she was now caring for her and that everything would be okay! My mother had pulled her NG tube out with frustration of agenizing pain and distress. My mother tried so hard not to cry in front of my dad and me, she said to Nurse Amber that she was afraid to let my brother down, that she was tired and couldn’t take any more! I asked Amber what time she had her meds last. She said the last time she had her scheduled pain med was 8pm the previous night. I was in outrage! No wonder my mother felt this way! My mom later asked to speak to my brother and tried again not to break down, she mentioned that she was afraid she was ready to throw in the towel due to previous night. Amber immediately got her some pain medicine and we began to cheer my mother’s spirits up. Nurse Amber advised me that Dr. Anno was ordering another gallon of the Golytely to be administered. I questioned this! She explained and got Dr. Anno on the phone to explain that there was some kind of mix up during the night and the correct amount was not given. This concerned us big time!
That afternoon, Amber was able to get some stool out and my mother sighed of relief, she said she was getting worried. She never admits when she is worried over herself! Even through all the suffering and feeling of wanting to give up, from the prior night; she didn’t truly want to give up! She didn’t want to die and was scared of death! Around 6pm my mom said:” Aimee come listen to this weird noise”. I got my ear close to her right chest and heard major gurgling! I immediately notified Nurse Amber. She listened with stethoscope, said it sounded like congestion and it was not deep in her lung. I requested an XRAY just to rule out pneumonia or bronchitis. I did not know a lot about medical but was very familiar with these two conditions, having two children. I also mentioned the concern because of her C spine and laying down position and the fact that 2 days prior she had a clear X-ray and this noise came out of NO where! Also she was now on her 2nd gallon of Golytely!! Amber advised me that there was no need for X-ray at this point and that we would keep an eye on it. My brother arrived at approximately 7 p.m. He heard me mention again to Nurse Amber of the concern, she listened again, and said still nothing to be concerned over and no X-ray, and she would go over everything with night nurse. At 8 pm the night nurse came in, I believe Nurse Henderson; and I expressed my concern to her and the need for an X-ray, and she listened to my mother and said that the gurgling was obvious. She stated that my mother needed to use a blowing devise. Still no X-ray! Within 20 minutes she brought it in. At this point my brother was here. The nurse also mentioned visiting hours and we told her that I would be spending the night and we would not leave my mom alone again after the previous bad night. She was very rude and gave us a hard time! She mentioned it several times and I said that she would need to get a supervisor to speak to me, that I was not leaving. My brother over heard me point out several times to Nurse Henderson to look and listen to when my mom takes a deep breath, she immediately goes to cough, but barely can cough, at this point she can’t take a real breath. Nurse Henderson kept insisting on the breathing devise and for my mother to take big deep breaths in and out. Still no X-ray!! My brother left around 9:15pm. Around 9:30p.m. I called nurse in again; she came in with pain meds and insisted my mom take some sleeping medicine to help her get some rest, I believe Adavan. My mom could not sleep, she could not stop going back and forth with her eyes. I can only imagine everything that was running through her mind! I tried tickling her to help her rest. I advised Nurse Henderson; that it was spreading to her left side. I could feel and hear it now on left side of chest. She said that she would order a breathing treatment but still no XRAY at this point. More time goes by and a lady comes in with breathing treatment and I anxiously point out my deep concern to her, I can’t remember her name, dark hair, shorter then I. She listened with stethoscope and said the noise was very obvious and that an X-ray was up to the nurse to request, but that she would well note it. She even mentioned the possibility of her lung being punctured by her broken rib. More time goes by. Time: meaning hour to hours in between.

Now into October 29th, 2009- Nearing approximately 2a.m. Nurse Henderson and I spoke again of the conversation I had with the breathing treatment lady, she finally mentions seeing if an X-ray can be ordered. At approximately 3a.m. while talking to my mother I notice she is struggling to talk. I get over her bed/face and ask her if she feels like she is suffocating. She struggled to say yes and nod her head. I rush to get nurse! Nurse rushes on the phone with Doctor to get X-ray approved. I watch my mother so helpless; she tried to talk to me but couldn’t make sense. Her eye blood vessels began to pop, her eyes drying out. Her oxygen severely low, so they order blood to be drawn from artery, while they wait for approval for ICU, they turned oxygen all the way up. She was still suffocating! All she could do was stare in fear!!! I will never truly know what was running through her mind!! This will forever haunt me along with everything else!! She was so helpless and all her life, all she has ever known was having and being in control of herself, her life, ect! Nurse Henderson shouts out to the other medical staff my mom has COPD. I said no she doesn’t. She got rude said yes its in chart. I said no! She said rudely again well she smokes doesn’t she?! I said yes, but she has never had issue or diagnosis of COPD! She rudely rushed with: “well we will deal with it later- I need to focus on this immediate situation”! I agreed but was worried of any incorrect information causing more harm to the situation! Shortly after 4a.m. we get to ICU and I know this time all too well because as we rushed in; it felt like a scene from a movie. It was empty! I asked where all the doctors and nurse staff was. A lady mentioned the place was large. We kept going still empty, the lady looked at her watch, mentioned 4a.m and said it’s because of the time and more staff would be arriving. This scared me to death because of the life and death situation my mother was in!!! An ICU doc, with blonde hair shouted out a number to Nurse Henderson, I believe 7.31 and the night nurse said a different number back in the 7 range, ICU Doc said no, she put report in Nurse Henderson’s face! Henderson’s response was oh! My understanding was and stated the other number in the 7 range. Some huge mix-up that delayed my mom from getting to ICU sooner with more urgency! I did not leave the room at this point, I did not dare, was too afraid! I heard them say, Dr. Anno would be here in 30 minutes and that an ER doc was on the way. I shouted out; I am afraid my mom is not in the right place!! I could tell they were all alarmed and some; I felt wanted me out of the room!!! My mom was awake this whole time as she was suffocating to death and they were pumping air into her lungs as they waited for ER Doc and then they continued as they figured out how they would intubate her with a broken neck. Luckily they were able to without having to alter her neck. They then put her in a medically induced coma. They stabilized her and later a neurologist came in. We were confused because we were told over and over there was no neurology what so ever. My sister Krishna and my niece Marissa were here at this point. He turned the Propofol off to check her neurological status. She responded to pain and when I said, “mom Marissa is here (her 1st grandchild)”, she struggled to open her eyes and her brow moved up. A pulmonary Doc came in. We were advised that she had aspirated and something about aspirated pneumonia in her left side. That was the noise we heard at 6p.m the day before. And had I left like Nurse Henderson kept harping on me to do; she would have died because she could not talk or see to reach the nurse button to call for help!!!!



The neurologist took all the concerns very seriously, he was amazing and took his time to hear everything and evaluate her situation the best he could. He thought it was best to get her to St. Josephs due to the broken C2 and the Nero unit at St. Joseph’s and we agreed; we wanted her out of there! Also a general surgeon came in and when we described the chain of events, she clearly stated the Golytely my mother was given would not have taken affect immediately and that she was impacted with at least over a month’s worth of stool and that surgery wasn’t needed at that exact point and that more so what was needed was for her to have daily, manually disimpaction, along with suppositories and enemas and that it would take several days to even a week possibly to really begin to make a difference! While waiting for discharge to St. Joseph’s, a case worker came in to hear of our concerns and then later 2 separate directors came in, a lady and then gentlemen to take notes on what went wrong! They seemed almost nervous and scared! I was very distraught at this point and there was so much to say and I didn’t know where and how to begin. Each new person, I tried my best to describe in a short time the chain of events that caused my mother to be fighting for her life! I asked the nurse for a pen and paper and immediately began to get all my mental notes written down as we wait and as my mom remain stable.

Now at St. Joseph’s, still October 29th, 2009- I rode in ambulance front passenger seat, so my mom was not left alone. Arrive at St. Josephs, they get her settled in. Immediately the nurse notices her swollen feet. They begin to order a bunch of testing. I advise them of everything that occurred at Mountain Vista and she was fighting for her life because of it!! They also help manually make her cough and they get a bunch of gunk out of her lungs. At this point she is still on NPO, she is going on 4 days with only one meal of nutrition. I got to talk to her, well; she couldn’t talk back, she tried to move her mouth, but I told her not too because of the breathing tube in her throat. I got her paper and pen and had her write and squeeze my hand to help decipher the letters. I assured her she was okay and that I was with her the entire time and never leaving her side! I said to her, “mom...when things happened so fast last night, did it scare you”? She shook her head yes and her eyes filled with tears, that is all she could do to express to me her thoughts, feelings and to what deep extent I will never truly know! My heart broke a million times. Overwhelmed with tears and my voice broken, I said to her; I was too and caressed her head and held her hands and kissed her chin! I then assured her everything was okay now! I explained that the noise her and I both were so concerned about, was very valid. She aspirated from all the Golytely that was being pumped into her, it was drowning her! That the hospital screwed up big time and that she now had aspirated pneumonia, but that she was now in good hands. I made her promise me that she would be stronger than ever right now because it was needed and I promised her that she would be okay and I would make sure of it!!! This day and night she was very stable.



Fri Oct 30th, 2009- St. Joseph’s do more testing. Another very stable day; considering! They do a CT scan of her neck also. They continue to manually make her cough. The nurse’s noticed more swelling in her arms. The ICU Doctor Forseth came in this morning and I explained in detail everything that Mountain Vista did to cause her to be in this life and death situation. He stated that he wanted to keep her off the Propofol so that her vitals and true wellness can be monitored more clearly. I agreed! This day overall was very stable too, I got to spend more time with her, she wanted me to put on Animal Planet and she wanted water so bad, but all I could do was put an ice soaked sponge stick in her mouth and she sucked it each time like her life was depending on it!! That’s how thirsty and dry he mouth was. I then tried to rest at times of her resting and being stable. The neurologist came in and I gave him all the details as well and he said he would review the CT scan with her prior scan nearly 3 months ago; with Dr. Porter and follow up with me regarding. They also started her on nutrition via IV and continued to do suppositories and enema regimen for impaction to clear. She was very alert, I had her blink and squeeze my hand if she could hear and understand me. I even tickled her feet and they squirmed. I tickled her arms. Around 8 p.m. I spoke with Nurse Jo and my brother was here at this time. I left to visit a few hours with my kids, I told my mom I would be back shortly and assured her I was spending the night and we talked about the Halloween party we were all having with her the following day with the grandkids! My brother and Buffy his service dog visited with her while I was away. When I arrived back at approximately 11 a.m., I immediately noticed the white Propofol on the IV pole. I said what is going on to Nurse Jo, I explained that Doctor Forseth clearly stated earlier that he did not want her back on this; to keep a close clear eye on her true vitals and status and to determine more accurately if things were getting worse. Nurse Jo said that it was to give her a good night’s rest and assured me it was okay. I did not feel one bit comfortable with this, but asked my mom, if she wanted to be sedated, she shook her head yes, that shows how much pain and suffering and distress and so much more that she was in from all that had occurred at Mountain Vista. However, I do not think she had any clue as to what type of medicine was going to sedate her. Normally she does not want to be sedated because of how scared she is when she loses her level of consciousness with hospitals and medical staff. I said to her okay, and I love you and get a good night rest, and I am not leaving and will be right on the couch. The night was very quiet. So, I tried to rest also.


Sat Oct 31st, 2009- this morning was alarming! Around 7am her stats went down. Day Nurse_______ called ICU doc and they starting giving diff meds, overall still stable, but the nurse was very concerned. I was informed they had tried to make her manually cough and nothing came up. They said this could be good or bad depending on what a new X-ray shows and if it the pneumonia appears to be improving. Time goes by and I ask where the ICU doctor is, Nurse_______ said she called again because of the concern of her vitals. More time goes by, no doctor; I asked again and was advised he would be in around 11:30 a.m. Noon and still no Doctor, I asked again and you could feel the concern and frustration in her voice, she said she called 3 times. Dr. Right walks in at 12:30 (5 ½ hours later) and looks at her vitals, he asks with alarm: “who has been rounding this patient this morning! The team shrugged and he asked, “What do you mean you don’t know”! Nurse__________ says that she thought it was him. He said, “NO- I am B” and walked out of the room to get to the bottom of it! I explained to him a summary of chain of events. Shortly after her vitals dropped again, the team adds more meds, Dr. Right request an EKG of her heart. They stabilize her. The heart result came in later and showed her heart looked good. I spoke to her and she nodded that she heard me; but her nod didn’t seem as strong. I asked her to squeeze my hand and blink her eyes; she barely blinked her eyes and couldn’t squeeze my hand. I assumed this was due to the pain meds. I mentioned this to Nurse________ and she confirmed it was due to the pain medicine she was on. The neurologist came in and informed me that her neck was healing and the results showed significant improvement and that she would need about another month and half with the neck brace. This alone was a miracle, because they could not do surgery due to her brittle bones and there was a huge chance she may never heal! I went out of my way to share this good news with my mom and that stool was finally coming out! I assured her again that everything was going to be okay. She appeared stable to me and I was not advised otherwise, so I said I am going to get some rest and that I will be over on the couch. Around 3:15 her vitals dropped again; this time severely! Team rushes in along with now a pulmonary specialist doctor. They try and get IV in her artery for stats on her blood pressure and oxygen. Pulmonary doc says he is going to do a Bronc procedure and look down her lungs with a camera. They struggled to get IV in her artery, because her veins were so constricted and in her groin area there was skin break down and significant yeast, which was never mentioned before to us. He then advised me that she is so sick and might not make it. I explained to him the chain of events and the major screw ups on Mountain Vista’s part that caused all of this. I even explained some of the chain of events now at St. Joseph’s. He said he was just now called in and didn’t really know what to say regarding everything else and advised us that her condition is very bad and realistically she might not make it. I said she has too!! He orders more testing, more meds, and another test of her heart. At this point I asked docs if she was still sedated because her eyes remain open and just stare and remained this way till her death on the morning of Nov 1st. They said yes it was due to the sedation. They stabilized her. On this day, when they turned her over to handle stool and clean her up, I noticed yellow seep out her mouth, I panicked and the staff said calm down and they suctioned it out. This was from the nutrition they put her on via IV. Her body still could not process anything!!! That late evening or early morning, I thought it was best to call the Rapid Response team. It felt like things were going way to slow and that they were not taking any of this serious and taking their time with testing and test results. No rush what so ever!!! I can’t remember ladies name, but member of the Rapid Response Team met with me, then my sister and I. We explained chain of events from Mountain Vista, then St. Joseph’s and our deep concerns regarding her care now at St. Joseph’s also! She looked over the charts, she said without talking to any of the staff, so far the only thing she noticed wrong, was they forgot to do a chest X-ray earlier in the day on the 31st when it was ordered, somehow it was overlooked. She stated she would continue to monitor things. Shortly after our talk, Nurse Jo took my mother’s temperature and it was over 107.3. I ran out and said, “What can we do”! Rapid Response Lady said there was nothing else that could be done!! I said NO that is unacceptable! I rushed in room and immediately started icing her down with the help of my 14 year old niece. I demanded that they give her Tylenol/Motrin suppositories. This brought her fever down immediately and kept it between 99-101-102 degrees, it fluctuated. At this point I got permission to take it as often as I needed, by Nurse Jo. I did this; so obsessively- to monitor it. Nurse Jo even updated chart through me a few times. I notified Rapid Response lady of this and she got very defensive and rude with me. At this point they thought maybe swine flu, which I knew had nothing to do with any of it!!! They gave her the swine flu liquid medicine, I believe Tamaflu, down her NG. When she was rolled again several hours later, I noticed green stuff come out her nose. I panicked again!!! They said calm down and suctioned her out again and then kept NG on suction. Still nothing going down could be processed and so she was being re-drowned over and over!!! Looking back, the entire time they focused on getting rid of the aspirated pneumonia and keeping her vitals stabilized, they were re-drowning her lungs with the nutrition via IV and then the Tamaflu medicine given later, even after they noticed it come back up the first time out her mouth!!! Never did they focus on her GI issue!! Never was a GI doctor involved!! Even at St. Joseph’s!!! The 2 very stable days she had where they did all that testing, never was GI addressed or GI doc called in. 2nd heart result was given to us wayyyyy later on after the fact, that showed her heart was severely damaged. Looking back; her eyes staring for all those hours after the 3 p.m. incident; with no activity what so ever, more than likely was from a stroke from the 3pm incident! Not her being sedated! They even took her off her pain meds and her vitals went up and still no neurological activity. She more than likely was in severe comatose state of being or brain dead for up to 24 hours prior to her death and NO one had a clue, I sure as hell didn’t and my siblings and I were never advised of this! Every time I mentioned to medical staff, they said it was because she was sedated, I did not even know of the light test you can do for even comma patients to test neurological status. I found this out early into the morning of Nov 1st and none of the staff the entire time of the 31st did this test, or questioned or focused on her neurological status; even after I mentioned it several times! No one investigated this or requested any neurological consultation for this matter or testing to be done! So my sister and I did the light test our self and NO REACTION!!! And we asked Nurse Jo more on it and he did it with us and verified; No reaction, he even showed us a few things with the tubing in her nose and down her throat, no reflex at all!!!!! WE WERE CRUSHED AT THE THOUGHT OF THIS ALL LEADING TO HER Possibly BEING BRAIN DEAD!!! Still her spirit fought to stay alive! My siblings and I got her through the night of the 31st and that brings us to>>>>

November 1st, 2009- Early morning stats dropped again, medical team came in, Pulmonary Doctor came in again, sister and I in the room the entire time. Pulmonary Doc asked the medical staff in room, why the chest X-ray he ordered to be done early in the morning was never done! Nurse Jo gave a blank look and shrugged (like there was no point). I shouted out, this is unacceptable!!! Another missed X-ray!!! Every action, test, results, and timeliness, ect, are all 911 crucial and critical in life and death situations like this!! I spoke to Pulmonary Doc after and he seemed puzzled and didn’t know what to say regarding the X-ray not being done, he said he did order it! We kept my mother as stable as she was going to get under the circumstances and there was no reason for this not to have been done. They turned her multiple times to clean her and deal with stool issue. The X-ray tech comes to the room and they simply put the board under her! A couple hours after; she has her 1st cardiac arrest. Her spirit fights it!!! My sister and I ask Pulmonary Doc why we can’t do further testing or try other measures, he said that this was the most they could do and that she wasn’t stable enough for anything else now at this point. What did we have to lose!!!! A couple more hours go by and my mother had her 2nd cardiac arrest, her spirit still fought it! This was not her time!!! The entire medical staff was in shock that she kept going. The medical staff was all very aware of my deep concerns in the mishaps that occurred now regarding this hospital and someone must have mentioned it because a lady with white hair, older, I believe the day shift Rapid Response Supervisor, tried to pull me out when my mom had her final cardiac arrest within ten minutes later. She said to wait out of the room. I advised her that my sister and I have been in the room the entire time and all the staff were okay with it and never asked us to leave and we stay on the couch in back. She said to wait till they get situated. I said NO, I need to get in there with my sister on the couch! At this point it almost felt that St. Joseph’s was very nervous and worried!!! This lady gripped my hand tight yet appearing to be holding it politely. She even made a rude comment of having me removed! I assured her we have been in there the entire time and the entire medical team had no problem with this! I went back in the room with sister. This final cardiac arrest my mom’s spirit tried so hard to fight it, but her body could not take anymore!!!! SHE WAS OFFICIALLY DEAD!!! KILLED BECAUSE MURDER IS PREMEDITATED, SHE DID NOT DIE, SHE WAS KILLED!!! BY MALPRACTICE FROM MOUNTAIN VISTA AND THEN MORE NEGLECT IN CARE AND MISHAPS, AND MEDICAL MISTAKES AT ST. JOSEPH’S!!! JUSTICE MUST BE SERVED AND THIS CAN’T HAPPEN TO ANOTHER PATIENT/FAMILY!!! THIS HAS TO BE PREVENTED!!! IN MERRI’S NAME!!

Mountain Vista is the OBVIOUS WHICH PUT MY MOM IN LIFE AND DEATH STATUS!
MY CONCERNS REGARDING ST. JOSEPH’S PART OF NEGLEGANCE- WHICH ADDED TO HER LIFE AND DEATH STATUS: THE 2 DAYS MY MOM WAS STABLE AND THEY DID EVERY OTHER TEST, WHY DID THEY NOT DO ANY GI INVESTIGATION, WHY WAS A GI NOT CONSULTED! WHY WAS THERE ONLY A NEUROLOGIST REGARDING HER FOLLOW UP BROKEN C2, the respiratory TEAM; AND WHY DID THEY WAIT TO CALL A PULMONARY SPECIALIST IN, UNTIL THE 31ST AROUND THE 3 P.M. INNCODENT WHEN SHE WAS GOING DOWN HILL AND FAST!!! WHY WAS HER NEUROLOGICAL STATUS ON THE 31ST NEVER ADDRESSED, NO NUROLOGIST CAME BACK IN REGARDING THIS MATTER, NO NEUROLOGICAL TESTING at all on the 31st and Nov 1st; REGARDING HER EYES STARING FOR UP TO 24 HRS WITH NO REACTION, NO REFLEX REACTION, UNRESPONSIVE IN EVERY SENSE! HER COMATOSE STATE OF BEING; EVEN WHEN TAKEN OFF THE SEDATION/PAIN MEDS! MORE NEGLEGANCE!!! THEY KNEW OF THE GI ISSUE AND IMPACTION FROM HER RECORDS FROM MOUNTAIN VISTA AND FROM ME SUMMING UP THE CHAIN OF EVENTS TO EVERY SINGLE NEW NURSE, NEW MEDICAL STAFF, AND DOC THAT CAME IN HER ROOM!! ON THE 31ST EVEN AFTER THE NUTRITION CAME BACK UP OUT HER MOUTH AS THEY ROLLED HER, WHY WAS THE GI NOT ADDRESSED, AND EVEN AFTER THEY GAVE HER THE TAMAFLU MEDICINE DOWN THE NG TUBE, AND IT CAME BACK UP OUT HER NOSE AS THEY ROLLED HER; WHY DIDN’T THEY HAVE A CLUE!!! THEY PUT HER BACK ON SUCTION AND EVENTUALLY IT BEGAN TO SUCK OUT ONLY BLOOD FROM HER STOMACH. AS THEY WERE FIGHTING TO GET RID OF THE ASPIRATED PHEMONIA/MAJOR INFECTIONS CAUSED BY THIS, FROM BEING DROWNED WITH GOLYTLEY; THEY CONTINUED TO REDROWN HER WITH NUTRITION AND THEN TAMAFLU> BECAUSE THEY DID NOT ADDRESS HER GI ISSUE; ANY KIND OF OBSTRUCTION; EVEN PSUEDO OBSTRUCTION WHICH WAS MENTIONED IN RECORDS FROM MOUNTAIN VISTA BY THE GENERAL SURGEON. I TRIED MY BEST TO STAY ON TOP OF ALL! I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT MEDICAL!! I WILL FOREVER FEEL REGRETS AND WHAT IF’S AND IF ONLY!!! WHY DID THEY PUT HER BACK ON PROPOFOL THE NIGHT OF THE 30TH WHEN THAT MORNING DR. FORSETH SPECIFICALLY REQUESTED AND ADVISED ME HE WANTED HER TO STAY OFF OF IT; TO WATCH HER CONDITION CLOSELY AND CLEARLY. THEY HAD HER ON A DIFFERENT PAIN MEDICINE IN REPLACE OF IT. THAT NIGHT OF BEING ON PROPOFOL IT **APPEARED** SHE WAS SLEEPING SOUNDLY THROUGH THE NIGHT TILL APROXIMATELY 7A.M ON THE 31ST AND THIS IS WHEN HER VITALS DROPPED SIGNIFICANTLY THE FIRST TIME, THEN AGAIN THE 2ND TIME AND IT WAS ALL DOWN HILL AFTER THAT!!!! THAT NIGHT OF PROPOFOL SHE APPEARED IN PEACEFUL SEDATION AS SHE WAS BEING RE DROWNED FROM THE NUTRITION GIVEN EARLIER IN DAY AND SHE COULDN’T SHOW ANY SIGNS OR TRY AND COMMUNICATE ANY FURTHER PROBLEMS BECAUSE SHE WAS SO HEAVILY SEDATED!! ON THE MORNING OF THE 31ST WHEN HER VITALS FIRST DROPPED SIGNIFICANTLY AND THE NURSE SHOWED GREAT CONCERN AND REQUESTED ICU DOC 3 TIMES AND IT TOOK 5 ½ HOURS DUE TO HUGE MIXUP; UNACCEPTABLE NEGLEGENCE!!! EVERY SECOND, MINUTE, HOUR, TEST, INVESTIGATION- COUNTS WHEN IT’S LIFE AND DEATH AND THE STAFF LATER MENTIONED MY MOM WAS THE WORST CASE ON THAT FLOOR!!!! SO THEY WERE ALL VERY AWARE OF HOW CRITICAL AND LIFE AND DEATH HER SITUATION WAS!!!! HOW URGENTLY SHE WAS TO BE CARED FOR!!!

Regarding Apache Health Facility: where she was healing in the rehab unit due to broken C2 in July: She was supposed to have manual disimpaction, and they were very aware that her muscles in that area had deteriorated so bad that she could not feel when she was going and the stool reaches the opening and just sits there unless it is loose stool. In addition; are these very important factors: bedridden status, her C spine condition- broken C2, and previous lower spinal fractures and the affects; regarding bowel movements. They were to notify my brother, power of attorney- if she did not have stool within a 3 day period. How did it go this long and get to be a month or more worth of stool impaction in her intestines- per the general surgeon. Why were X-ray/KUB not done regarding her bowel concerns and issues at the care facility. On top of this my brother got major run around from the Apache staff, Doc, and her follow up with Neurology care!!


OUR MOTHER never admits when she is worried for herself. Normally on the surface she feels invincible and to be quite honest, in the 10 years since her tragic horse accident, many battles she fought, Doctors and staff advised us she would not make it, many times she should not have made it literally, but lived through it!! Lived through several critical surgeries, MERCA in her blood and bed soar and urine at one point, septic and SHE FOUGHT IT!! That was our mom! She was born with a brittle bone disease and wheel chair bound all her life, but did more then you and me without!! She practically raised 3 children on her own, 2 in which have the brittle bone disease as well. She fought her entire life for herself; her independence is all she knew! All anyone knew of HER!! Then she had a family and fought her entire life for her children! My brother developed Juvenile pageants disease on top of this brittle bone disease. He was hospitalized for 3 months, and they called in Make-A-Wish because he would more than likely die. My mother never left his side, had to be torn apart having her other 2 children at home in our father’s care, with troubles of its own situation. My mother never accepted NO or that my brother was going to die and that it was over!! She took him home to care for him, spent the next 3 years battling this while he was still bed bound!! He was frail and looked as if he had AIDS. He ended up losing all of his teeth before puberty because of all the morphine he had to take. He is now a strong handsome engineer thanks to our mother!! I am now the mother I am today thanks to our mother!! OUR MOTHER, OUR NANA, OUR HERO, OUR HEART & SOUL, THE GLUE THAT BONDS US TOGETHER, OUR EARTH ANGEL, NOW OUR HEAVENLY ANGEL! THIS WAS NOT RIGHT! THIS WAS NOT HER TIME!! SHE DID EVERYTHING SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO DO, NORMALLY PUTS OUT RESISTANCE BECAUSE OF HOW EXTREMELY DIFFICULT IT IS TO ACCEPT BEING CARED FOR AND ACCEPT THAT SHE CAN’T DO FOR HER SELF; FIRST TIME EVER IN HER LIFE! BUT PAINSTAKINGLY’ THIS TIME SHE DIDN’T RESIST AT ALL, SHE DID EVERYTHING SHE WAS ADVISED TO DO; SHE DIDN’T PUT UP ANY RESISTANCE!!! SHE WAS AFRAID TO DIE! FOR HER CHILDREN, GRANDCHILDREN, BUT EVEN FOR HER SELF!! Ever since we moved her in with my brother and Kat, away from major neglect AND even though she lost her home of 26 years due to our father once again, her spirits were finally back!!! Like never before!! She wanted to live, be a part of her kids and grandkids lives, she actually got out of bed for special occasions even though she still faced major chronic pain!! She wanted to talk on the phone again all the time. She wanted to play games again with the family, have family nights, her and I had a week get away planned to spend together and watch movies and eat good meals and junk food, she wanted to be a part of holidays again- we even planned a Halloween party this year with her, she was so excited to see all 5 grandkids in their costumes and surprise them with her own costume made by Kat and candy treats and NANA loving TLC!! But that night was spent in horror!!!

Our Mother AFTER horse accident 10 years ago! 10 years of pain, agony, depression, loss of her mobility and independence one by one, literally ripped away, 10 years of humiliation and shame she felt in having to be cared for, not being able to do for herself, having to give up all her modesty, having complete strangers bathe her, dress her, bathroom assistance, having a permanent catheter, having to deal with chucks and depends, ect!! INDEPENDENCE WAS ALL SHE KNEW OF!! She was ONLY 58 years YOUNG* BUT YOU CAN’T TELL THIS FROM THE SURFACE!!!


THIS IS WHAT MALPRACTICE DID TO OUR MOTHER, SO HELPLESS- THE LAST PIECE OF CONTROL AND INDEPENDENCE SHE HAD ripped AWAY, ALMOST 24 HOURS PRIOR TO RIPPING AWAY HER ENTIRE LIFE!!! HER SOUL FOUGHT 107.3 FEVER; WHEN THEY SAID THERE WAS NOTHING MORE THAT COULD BE DONE AND I RAN IN TO ICE HER DOWN AND DEMANDED SUPPOSATORIES WITH TYLENOL/MOTRIN. SHE FOUGHT 2 CARDIAC ARREST, THE MEDICAL STAFF COULD NOT BELIEVE IT AS SICK AS SHE WAS, HER FINAL CARDIAC ARREST HER SOUL TRIED TO FIGHT IT BUT HER BODY COULD NOT BARE ANYMORE!!!!! SHE DID NOT DIE; SHE WAS KILLED BY MEDICAL MALPRACTICE!!! JUSTICE MUST BE SERVED!! AND WE WILL SPEND THE REST OF OUR LIVES, LIVING, BREATHING, ACTING, ADVOCATING; IN MERRI’S NAME!!!~

NO LONGER ACCEPTING DONATIONS...

24 MONTH STATUTE OF LIMITATIONS HAS EXPIRED! Sadly not even a penny donation!! THERE IS NO JUSTICE! A LAW SUIT WOULD ONLY BRING MONETARY DAMAGES AND MY SISTER, BROTHER, AND I, WANT NOT A SINGLE DIME OFF OF YOUR VERY TRAGIC WRONGFUL DEATH!!!


SO I WILL SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE ADVOCATING FOR YOU MOM, YOUR NAME, YOUR STORY AND FOR OTHER INNOCENT PATIENTS AND FAMILIES!!

Day 5, 6, 7*** Sorry had not computer access...

Very difficult days, but nothing like before with all the SEVERE PTSD! Different, yet equally difficult!!

On Nov 2nd, yesterday: We rescued a dove 2day! What a story! Noticed injured Dove around our block, while walking our pups. It was in St. near side walk. It appeared 2 have an injured wing. We continued our journey 2 park. Aprx 15min later we return 2 notice Dove gone. To our prevail the Dove made its way around the block right in front of our house. Wow! We then took Dove 2 a rescue house. IMMEDIATELY AFTER I GET A CALL FROM MY MOMS BIRTH SISTER, WOW!

Dear my DEAREST MOTHER, aka MOMMY, MOMMY DOODLE BUG, SHORT PERSON:

OHHHHHH 2 YEARS TOO LONG!! 730 DAYS TOO LONG!!! 17,520 TO LONG!!!!

Day 4**

I find myself looking at the time on my phone and briefly flashing through those brutally vivid details and then diverting back to: the moment of the day and some of the great challenge that exists (which actually helps me divert).

OCT 28th, Day **3

Day 3! 5pm! The time u noticed the sound in your chest & said Aimee come listen! FOCUS FOCUS AVOID DIVERT! THESE HOURS ON THIS DAY ARE EXTREMELY HARD!

‎23 long months!! In MERRI'S NAME!!

Jeremey, Krish, Rissa, etc.. I love you guys with all my soul!! Our hands held tight, as we walk along the rest of this journey; until we all eventually joing hands together in the heavens above~ **When we are all old and wrinkley of cource and peacefully is all we can wish and pray for!!!! Our family, is always together forever, earth and in heaven!! I remember saying that out loud over and over, those last few moments!!! I needed to assure her, that no matter what it's okay and we are together forever!!!


It took me all these months, to finally swallow and release..that JUSTICE can not be served in the way I imagined. All that comes from a law suit against the Doctor, even the hospital, in this particular case, is THEIR INSURANCE cutting a check!! NO AMOUNT OF MONEY CAN EVER EVER JUSTIFY THOSE 7 DAY CHAIN OF EVENTS!! HER LIFE RIPPED AWAY, A HUGE PART OF OUR LIVES RIPPED AWAY!! So, my mission will always be in her name, to advocate as much as I can, to help others, to protect other patients, families, to help hospitals set up a better system to protect and prevent!! To stop these hospitals from closing down and re-opening and continuing the negligent patterns. To make change, and difference, in any way shape form I can, to look at every angle through the justice system, administrative systems ect..that can protect and prevent!!

Mom, I will always be YOUR VOICE!!! YOU WENT UNNOTICED FOR FAR TOO LONG by far too many!! AND THOSE 7 DAYS, YOU DIDN'T PUT UP A FIGHT, YOU DID EVERYTHING YOU WERE ADVISED, EVEN THOUGH YOU HESITATED ON THE NG TUBE AND GOLYTELY, YOU TOOK EVERY SIP I GAVE YOU THE 2ND ROUND SCREW UP*** YOU THEN WENT THE REMAINING DAYS WITH NO VOICE AT ALL!!! YOU COULDN'T EVEN TELL US WHAT YOU WERE THINKING, FEELING, PHYSICALLY FEELING, GIVE US FEEDBACK MEDICALLY, ETC!!! YOUR POOKIE IS GOING TO BE THE BEST NURSE OUT THERE!! SHE TOO WILL BE ADVOCATING IN YOUR NAME, YOUR HONOR!! HELPING AND PROTECTING PATIENTS AND FAMILIES!!

Happy Birthday Mommy!!

The kids and I are sending some special baloons your way, pink and with our special notes to you! We love you so much and miss you so much here on earth! But know you are with us every moment of ever single day, until we all unite in heaven!!!

Love Always and Forever,

Your Sunshine!
Your Pootie-Tootie!
Your Tall Person!
A.J

Ohhh mom!! How much we miss you!! I'd give my all to have just one more night with you!!

22 months!! ALWAYS IN MERRI'S NAME!!

I got to see pictures of Mom's birth sister (her SISTER) and her family!!

I feel deeply touched!! I feel WOW!! I see a lot of resemblence!! They eyes especially, the grin, the chin, and the nose even! She has 3 children also, and 5 grandkids, and her youngest son is named: Jeremy!!!! TOO!!! Oh mommy, I miss you so much!!! I feel so grateful to have united your sister to our family, to you, through YOU!!! I promise I will give my all to allowing a connection between you two, to flourish, to grow so close, through all of US, through YOU!!! Eart and Heavenly connected!!! You two have so much in common, your personalities even!!! WOW WOW WOW!!

21 Months!! In Merri's NAME!!!

I just read another note from my mother's birth sister, Susan! This came on a divine day! Mom, I miss you dearly and I am so grateful.. 21 months later I am able to cope, without all that PTSD symptoms that consumed me! ALWAYS IN YOUR NAME! EVERY BREATH, EVERY SECOND, EVERY MINUTE, EVERY SINGLE DAY!! TILL WE JOIN HANDS IN HEAVEN! TOGETHER FOREVER, EARTH AND IN HEAVEN! HEART & SOUL!!

"George" :(

I am soooo sorry, Mom that we had to lose your special car!! This was meant to stay in our family and I know how much you wanted to have Pookie use it!! My heart breaks for this!! I am devastated for this!!


All I wished for was to find a place to store it!! So we could keep it in our family, as you so passionately wished for!!!

July 1st-20 months. always in Merri's name!!

Mommy, your story will never be unheard!!! I will spend the rest of my life keeping it alive!! You are the definition of a true HERO!!!

Finally 20 months later, I am doing much better!! Thanks to my these recent chain of events that have given me some relief!! Krishna saving my life with the medicine side affect, us making real connection with you was the biggest part, then finding out your birth history and your sister!! Then all the other chain of events that followed! A huge part of me is back! I never ever thought I would see this day!! It didn't exist!!

Finally my mind-body-spirit, are re-connected!!

Oh mom!! We are together forever, earth and in heaven!!!

Wow!! The call!!

So we are at the hospital and we get the call from the Adoption Counselor at the cradle. Our hearts tingled as we learned that our mother's sister is very excited for this connection and heart broken to find out of her sister's recent passing!

Our mother grew up in and out of the hospital and her very own sister is a nurse!!! Lives in the South West as us! Who knows, she could have been Mom's nurse at one point, these past 12 years! She has children and grandchildren!!!! She does not have the brittle bone disease.

WOW!! Is the only word I can find to describe how I feel!!!

Breathless!! A piece of our mother's birth history!!!! Mom, I am sorry we couldn't get this fullfilled prior too!!! Cont...

But, I know you are smiling down!! Another piece of YOU!!!! And we are dieing to see your younger birth sister and maybe your older birth brother!!!! They had no idea of any sibling existence!!! Your sister has been looking for you, for our family!!! We will soon unite, with you at our side; as always!!!

Merri Roberson

Background History


Merri’s birthmother was 22-years-old when she gave birth to Merri. She stood 5 feet 7½ inches tall and normally weighed between 135 and 140 pounds. She had light brown hair and gray-green eyes with a fair skin tone. She completed two and a half years of high school at which time she married. She was an average student. She was employed as a Waitress and had previously been employed in factory work.

Merri’s birthmother was from the Middle Western United States. Her religion was Roman Catholic and she was of Italian descent. She was divorced and had 4 year old son at the time of Merri’s birth. Her son lived with his father and she had not seen him for a few years. At that time, he had reddish brown hair and blue eyes with a fair complexion. She told of unhappy marital experiences and explained she gave her son to her husband to parent when he threatened to take him away from her if she did not return to him.

Merri’s birthmother’s mother was 60 years old at the time of Merri’s birth. She stood 5 feet 5 inches tall and weighed 170 pounds. She had dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. She was a homemaker.

Merri’s birthmother’s father was deceased at the age of 58. He was described as short and stocky. He had brown hair and brown eyes. He had been employed as a Bricklayer.

Merri’s birthmother’s parents were both born in Italy. They were married in Italy and had their first two children there before immigrating to the United States and having three more children. Merri’s birthmother was the middle child. Her 27 year old brother stood 5 feet 1 inch tall and weighed about 160 pounds. He had dark brown hair and brown eyes with a dark complexion. He completed two years of high school, was married, and owned a cab. Her 30 year old sister stood 5 feet 4 inches and weighed 140 pounds. She had dark brown hair and brown eyes with a dark complexion. She was married and completed her second or third year of high school. Her 19 year old sister stood 5 feet tall and weighed 110 pounds. She had dark brown hair and brown eyes with a dark complexion. She was married and completed three years of high school. Her 16 year old sister stood 5 feet 2 inches tall and weighed 130 pounds. She had light brown hair and blue-gray eyes with a fair complexion. She was in her third year of high school.

Merri’s birthfather did not have direct contact with The Cradle and was not involved while the plans were being made for your adoption. Your birthmother provided information about him, including his name.

Merri’s birthfather was 35-years-old when she was born. He stood 5 feet tall 9 inches tall and weighed about 150 pounds. He had dark brown hair and blue eyes with a dark skin tone. His education level is not known. He was employed as a Crane Operator for a construction company.
Merri’s birthfather was of German descent.

Merri’s birthmother reported she met Merri’s birthfather in late November 1950 when he became a frequent customer at the restaurant where she was employed as a waitress. They began dating New Year’s Eve. Although she did not know Merri’s birthfather well, she felt she loved him as he was older and more understanding than her first husband. She shared that Merri’s birthfather talked of their marriage in the future. When she told him of her pregnancy in February, she felt that he was pleased; however she had not seen or heard from him since. She thought perhaps he was traveling for work, which he did at times, which was why she had not heard from him.

Merri’s birthmother’s mother was aware of the pregnancy, but had no part in Merri’s decision making process.

Merri’s birthmother was referred to The Cradle after Merri’s birth by the Women’s Service Division of the Family Service Bureau. Merri’s birthmother believed adoption was the best plan for Merri. She felt she was not in a position to parent at that time and shared she could not support a baby.

According to our records, Merri was born on September 28, 1951 at 11:10pm at The Salvation Army Booth Memorial Hospital in Chicago, Illinois. Labor lasted 16 hours 15 minutes and was described as easy. No drugs were administered during labor. Forceps were not applied during delivery. Merri was a full term baby. She weighed 7 pounds and measured 20¼ inches long. Merri’s birthmother named her Bonnie Lee.
Merri came to The Cradle Nursery on October 8, 1951 where the nurses named her Valerie. She stayed at The Cradle for 52 days and gained 3 pounds 3 ounces.

Merri joined her adoptive family on November 29, 1951.

Merri’s adoption was finalized on September 3, 1952.

Merri’s birthmother was in good health. This was her second pregnancy. There were no infections during this pregnancy. She reported the birth of her first child was normal. Merri’s birthmother denied a family history of chronic disease, tuberculosis, asthma, eczema and hay fever. Merri’s birthmother and birth grandmother had diabetes. She reported her first child started walking at about 10½ months and began saying words at 1 year.

The health and health history of Merri’s birthfather and his family is not known.
Merri’s birthmother returned to The Cradle in late 1952 to make a plan of adoption as she was pregnant again and due the following month. Merri and this child, a girl, share the same birthfather.

In 1997, Merri’s sister contacted The Cradle and requested information about her birth family background. Basic non-identifying social and medical information was provided to her at that time. It does not appear she is aware of any other children born by her birthmother.

19 months in MERRI'S NAME!!

Mom,

I have so much to express regarding these past couple days spent with each other! We promised each other, I promised you; we would find a way to connect!!!!! And we will continue this avenue and every other avenue we can find; along the way!!

Oh mom!!

Love,

A.J
Aimee Joy
Pootie Tootie
Tall Person
Sunshine

I love you so much! I love you more, and we could go on and on with our "I love you wars."

Oh Mom! Happy Mothers Day! We celebrated you as always! My fight for you is eternal!

**********URGENT PLEASE READ****

Accepting any donations for legal fees, to pursue our mother's very tragic wrongful death! Our desperate fight for JUSTICE to be served. Lawsuit against Doctor and the hospital in hopes of preventing further DEVASTATION TO INNOCENT PATIENTS AND FAMILIES!! (**Urgent to read info below on specific hospital)!! Even dollar donations make a difference. Also toward the funeral expenses debt that we are still trying to pay down. The fund is listed under Merri Roberson.

Donations can be made using the PayPal Donation button below or by stopping into any Wells Fargo branch. Just mention our mom's name Merri Roberson.

***********Very Urgent to read***** Mountain Vista hospital (formally Mesa General: that closed due to its horrific huge amount of negligence and malpractice, wrongful death lawsuits). The name is very misleading!!! IASIS Healthcare owns 18 hospitals (4 in AZ) and is the same owner of the Mesa General that closed. All medical records from the closed down Mesa General are at the re-opened hospital: MOUNTAIN VISTA!!

EVERYONE PLEASE PLEASE DO THE RESEARCH TO VERIFY AND STAY AWAY FROM MOUNTAIN VISTA!! You can find all the cases against Mesa General through The Trial Reporter. As well as other sources and investigation.



Elements in proving a Wrongful death: Duty, breach of duty, causation, damages. Sick to find out that the lawsuit is only against the doctor and that basically their insurance pays off the monetary damages. Lawsuit alone does nothing to penalize the Doctor, not even suspend license, ect!! This sickens me



I am not only going to follow through with lawsuit against Doctor and donate any monetary damages for causes in Merri's NAME, or use to open a foundation that advocates for great causes and offers help in any way! Additionally: I am going to advocate and fight for hospital malpractice! In addition to filing complaint through Arizona Medical Board. This process can investigate and penalize the actions of the Doctor, that led to wrongful death.


We have to file a separate med/mal suit against the PCP or treating physicians. So, you will file against the hospital, regarding- their specific negligence's. Then file against the doctors involved in the med/mal. They can later be combined per a judicial order. It's due to specific coverage via malpractice insurance and individuals vs. organized health care providers.

18 months; every hour, every day, every month- EVERY BREATH; always in Merri's Name!!

Short Person

Love always and forever,

Tall Person

Dear Mom,...

17 months!!!!!!! Always in your name Mom, your HONOR!!!! You are with all of us! Together/Forever! Earth/Heaven! I can never say/feel that enough!!!!

Well I thought I would have more info, not yet, but great piece to the puzzle~

Mom's birth surname is Vinell (possibly different spelling, maybe even Vinelli). This is the birth mother's surname as well. While waiting on agency, my own investigation continues and I have a huge list of names to go through via people finder. Will continue the update.

I can't believe what I am about to find out tomorrow. I think an Angel has finally heard my screams!!!

Our Heavenly Earth Angel~

First letter of birth history results on Mom

The 1st letter from the Illinois Department of Public Health (Reg Mom's birth history): the birth mother's age listed as 22 at time of her birth, no age listed for the birth father, the birth mother's race is listed as white, no race is listed for the birth father and the record indicates that one previous child was born to the birth mother. The date and place of birth: 9/28/51 at the Salvation Army Booth Memorial Hospital in Chicago, IL. More to come!

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How DARE him!!!! He never DESERVED YOU!!! How DARE her!!! She NEVER DESERVED you!!!

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16 months, IN MERRI'S NAME!~

PIECES FROM NEWS ARTICLE
Today the 26-year-old mother of two cleans, feeds and plays with her children from a wheelchair. Merri is expecting a third child in November. She is thought to be the only woman with OI to bear three children and probably will end up a new statistic in medical journals.


Merri has an associate in arts degree from Maricopa Technical Community College, where she met her husband, Allen.

She lists her occupation as mother and housewife, considering this equal to any outside job. “I would like to be an example for any handicapped person contemplating marriage and wanting to have children. I have had people who don’t really know me say I can’t have kids and shouldn’t get married.”

Merri Roberson doesn’t talk much about herself. “My breaks ended when I was 10,” she said. “My concern is for my kids now.”

“These kids are mature beyond their years,” Frame said. “They don’t feel sorry for themselves. Their mom sees to it that they lead lives as normal as possible. They’re a great family.”

“We aren’t worried about our selves,” Merri Roberson said.

Céline Dion - Goodbye's (The Saddest Word)

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Another vivid dream or encounter??!!

I have had many dreams, since YOU WERE TAKEN.. several deeply vivid! It has been nearly 14 months since the dream that I had,that lasted over 3 hrs (on and off) and toward the end; where you spoke from me from above.

In all these hours, days, weeks, months, in my darkest hour, deepest sorrow, deepest need, deepest desperation to have some contact with you, NOTHING!! Begging GOD, to somehow help us make contact!!!

FINALLY: another possible encounter in my dream!! Way more then any of the vivid dreams, very similar feeling of the 1st possible contact.

It has taken me a nearly two weeks to write it down. I wanted to immediately and so many times, but I couldn't for some reason. I just kept replaying it. I wanted to write it sooo bad, so I didn't forget any of the details, but couldn't. And then it happened again!!! And here I am, finally writing it!!!

" We were notified that you came back alive. It was three months later. I didn't believe it!! I couldn't figure out how. How were you preserved, how was this possible!!! But it was real!!! You were back and I ran to your lap, broken down, you gripped me so hard. I said Oh, mom!!! Told you how much we were all suffering!!! Our soles bleeding!!! The LIFE we knew so well, ripped in pieces!!! I told you about the PTSD and how rough it has been!!! You looked so beautiful, as I remember!! The form of you, (prior to the horse accident and past 11 yrs).

I had so many things to ask you. You had so much to say. I asked you if this was real. You said, "yes!" I asked if you remembered what happened. You said, "yes!" I asked if you could hear me and gave specifics. You said, "yes!" We broke down together some more!!

Then you told me you had to leave! I cried and begged, why!!! Dad jumps in to say, you guys are traveling the world. You both seemed so excited. But, I felt so horrible. Dad was so amazed you came back to life, and that he got a second chance with you!!! He couldn't stop showing his love, care, affection. He couldn't take his eyes and thoughts, away from you. This felt so beautiful, but it hurt so bad for you to be gone again!!


I THEN AWOKE!!!!



3RD DREAM/POSSIBLE CONTACT??!!!

" This time you appeared as I last remembered you,(after the 11 long years since your horse accident) and very frail from the 7 day chain of events. But you were alive. I had so much to say and ask and you had so much to say! We were at our house, but it was empty and very dusty. Your bed was still in your room. At first you were in your wheel chair and we began to talk about what had happened, step by step. At one point I had to carry you to your bed. I was telling you everything that happened and asking you which parts you remembered. It was as if I was the narrator. As I told it, you began to fade away, not actually fade, but deteriorate to your passing. I remember seeing dad at your side on the bed, he was so happy you were alive, he was so happy he got to talk to you and show you his love and care, a second chance to relive!! As I got to the part of the chain of events where you had a fever of 107. You actually were burning up. I immediately told you all Riss and I did to bring your fever down and we did, but in actuality you were still burning up. I just held you and we continued to talk about the whole experience, until you had to leave."

In all 3 of these dreams/experiences/encounters, we actually had what felt like real conversation!!!! More then any of the regular dreams, even the vivid dreams.

It took so long for these two dream contacts to happen!! I mean as I lay in beg broken and crying and pleading and praying and begging god to help you make contact with us, that this is what I desperately needed!!!! And came out of the blue and shocked me, came when I was least expecting them. I had felt a little hopeless, but never gave up in fighting for some kind of contact.

Mom advocating for her children's well being

Mom in school News

Mom in the news, three separate times, for her heroism, and advocacy* click on snaps for magnified view

Your room at Jeremy's tonight

I got the chance to go in your special room at Jeremy's! Emotional as always, ohhhh how I wish that room could always remain the same with all your stuff, as when you were in it!!! Painful as always!! But desperately needed as always!! Needed to bring home your water bottle and a piece of one of your wig clips...to add to my treasures and memories of you...to keep as close to me as possible!!!

Feb 1st 2011, 15 months! IN MERRI'S NAME....BroKen!!!!

Jan 1st, 14 months, IN MERRI'S NAME

YOUR STORY WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN AND JUSTICE IS IN THE PROCESS! JUSTICE WILL BE SERVED! I WILL NOT REST UNTIL IT IS!!! I LOVE YOU MOMMY, I MISS YOU SO MUCH ON EARTH!!! AND ALL THAT YOU EXPERIENCED AND I WITNESSED, THOSE 7 DAYS, ARE HAUNTING FOR BOTH OF US, I KNOW!!! i PRAY YOU ARE FREE FROM ALL, INCLUDING THE TRAUMA AND PAIN AND SILENCE AND TORMENT, THAT WAS FORCED UPON YOU!!! I WILL SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE TRYING TO FIND MY WAY THROUGH IT ALL!!! YOUR STORY WILL LIVE ON THROUGH ME, AND THE REST OF THE FAMILY!!! YOU ARE NOT OVERLOOKED!!! YOU ARE SO WORTHY!!! SO HEROIC!!!!