12/21/11 Another vivid dream/encounter:

12/21/11


Another vivid dream/encounter! I wish we could record our dreams!!! Literally!! You can never portray the experience, as vivid and real as it was. And you forget so many specifics in dialogue, especially when you wait till the end of the day to actually write it down, ugh!

It involved all of us. It felt like a direct moment shared with her/message to us. For some time now, I have not been able to think of you, I must look away from pictures, I must divert! It's too unbearable and I must prevail through all that surrounds the kids and I. I haven't had many dreams of you, that I can remember. A few far in-between, light dreams.

To my surprise was this mornings dream/encounter:

It felt as in the present moment. We were in such grief over your loss of life! I remember picking up a phone to contact the church, which had a hospital in it. This is the hospital where you died. I pretended to be an organization wanting to donate to your fund. They said I could. They then advised me that you were still in the hospital and alive, barely holding on, but alive!

I immediately rushed to your room. There you were. Propped up. You were as I last remember. You were deathly sick. Your eyes were closed. I walked in the room and said, Mom. Your eyes opened. I couldn't believe!! This time the life support tube was not in your mouth. I asked where it was. You said it was down there. I said, Oh and we both smirked. You were so faint. Instantly I knew we had a 2nd chance to spend with you, your last hours. I rushed to call everyone! I just laid with you and held and caressed you, kissed you over and over! This time I knew you were dieing, we both knew. This time we got to say all that we needed and wanted. It felt so peaceful this time. Krishna, Jeremy, and all 5 grandkids soon arrived. Dad arrived. In our time of talk before they arrived: I told you how Dad was really hurting, that he really did love you, that he even slept on two of your blankets and didn't want to wash them of your scent. We both felt awe and shared a smile.


I asked where the pain was. You faintly moved your hand around your head, neck, and chest/stomach area. I asked if you were in a lot of pain. You were, but there was a lot of pain medicine too, that was somewhat helping. Even though you were in pain, you were in peace. We were all in peace at this moment, to experience your last hours all over again, in a better way! Oh Mom we talked so much!

Then the rest of the bunch showed up, and everyone got to hug and kiss you over and over. We all talked. Interestingly, Dad held up his lighter and began to smoke a cigarette. We were in shock and about to get upset that he would rub it in, and then he began to laugh. His sense of humor. He was messing around. Then he did go outside to smoke and came back in.

I began to tell you that I met this wonderful lady, she reminded me so much of you. That you both had similar interests and hobbies. How she even looked like you. That her mother came from England. You were in awe of that. I said, this wonderful lady is your sister. You were in shock at first. You shed tears of joy. I then dialed her number and you two spent a while on the phone, catching up. At one point you had a pillow over your face, while talking in private underneath, to her. Then you guys hung up. Over the course of several hours of time together you grew more and more faint. Several times, we thought it was the moment of your passing, and you kept going.. you opened your eyes and faintly spoke and showed us, that you heard us. Then finally as Krish was sharing a story, your eyes began to close, and I looked at you to see if this was it and looking into your eyes, everything went to darkness and I knew!

We then drove to meet at our old home, which interestingly was Krishna's house on Olla St. I arrived first. Everything was dark from the outside and in. I opened the door and walked in. Instantly the back porch light began to flicker, lights began to turn on and off at different points, music began to play in the kids playroom. It was cheerful music. All I could do was smile. I felt such peace and joy. I knew it was you and I knew you were letting us know that you were now in heaven, okay, and in peace. The other's arrived shortly after all of this. It was an awe moment for us all! Krish was a little hesitant, and I pointed everything out and she too, was in awe!