9 yrs, Wow! Never feels real. This journey we've taken. You are with us in all we do. I now have a better understanding of Heaven and how real it is. This has helped me regarding Death period, and especially your death. Miss you with every breath I take. Love you so much Mommy! Together Forever, Earth & Heaven💕💕💕

Dear Mom,

It’s been 2 years since I’ve posted. Wow is all I can say and feel. I had to fight to save baby girl and then baby boy. I fought just like you fought for us, mom. I miss you deeply, we all do! Ki found some old pics, sunk my heart. The heart beating, heart wrenching love and memories. You gave us the best life. Our family has forever changed without you. I strive to keep your traditions alive. I work to give it All to God, every moment, of every day and to focus on each moment we have left together, being present, being in this very moment...

Always and Forever,
Your Sunshine, Your PT, Tall Person

You would be 65 this year. Happy Birthday Mom, I love you with every breath❤️

Yep; it's that time of year. Can't help but feel
Super sensitive and extra vulnerable. Hard to believe we are going on 7 years.

Dear my sweet, sweet angel,

It feels like yesterday that I lost you, but also like forever at the same time.  The more days that pass, the more I wonder how I am actually really doing this whole “life” thing without you.
I wonder how it is that I am actually surviving. I wonder how it is possible that I’m actually accomplishing all of these great things.

However, I think the answer to that is quite simple. It’s you. You are the reason. You were the strongest person on this earth and gave me all of the tools I needed to survive, without me knowing it.

You never intended to prepare me for a life so early without you, but with just being you, you did it.

You taught me everything I needed. You showed me strength. You showed me courage. You showed me what it was like to fight with everything in you despite the negative hand that you’ve been dealt.

You showed me that there is nothing in this world that me or you couldn’t conquer.
You were my backbone while you were here on earth and frankly, you still are even from heaven. You continue to guide me everyday while making sure I continue to make the right choices. You are by my side every step of the way.

So even when life gets overwhelming and becomes to unbearable to handle without my mom here, I sit back and remember, that you are still just as close as ever, right here with me in my heart.
I know you’re watching. I know you’re proud.

I become a little more like you every single day. I become stronger. I become tougher. I become the woman you always knew I could be. I become the woman that you prepared me to be.

So even though it was never your intention that I would need to learn how to live a life without you, you did an amazing job preparing me.

I am forever thankful. You are forever with me. And I will forever and always be your baby girl.

7 hardest days of my life. 6yrs doesn't not seem real. "No matter how long it's been, i suddenly think of u and it gets harder to breath..." I've come along way in regard. But I know I have a ways to go; to be in a better space in regard to you and our last 7 days together. It wasn't natural, it wasn't peaceful. Those details will forever haunt me and weigh me down inside and I deeply work toward freedom within, break these chains.

Happy 64th birthday Mom. We miss and love you dearly and deeply with our every breath and heart beat.

We thank God for finding your sister. How ironic and amazing that you both were only a year apart and in so many ways, it's as if you guys were twins. You were always in the hospital as a patient, she was in the hospital as a Nurse. You both had 3 children, two girls and a son whose name was Jeremy. Your husband and her brothers name are both Tom. You both look so much alike, have the exact same penmanship, voice, sentiment, strength; I could go on...