You would be 65 this year. Happy Birthday Mom, I love you with every breath❤️

Yep; it's that time of year. Can't help but feel
Super sensitive and extra vulnerable. Hard to believe we are going on 7 years.

Dear my sweet, sweet angel,

It feels like yesterday that I lost you, but also like forever at the same time.  The more days that pass, the more I wonder how I am actually really doing this whole “life” thing without you.
I wonder how it is that I am actually surviving. I wonder how it is possible that I’m actually accomplishing all of these great things.

However, I think the answer to that is quite simple. It’s you. You are the reason. You were the strongest person on this earth and gave me all of the tools I needed to survive, without me knowing it.

You never intended to prepare me for a life so early without you, but with just being you, you did it.

You taught me everything I needed. You showed me strength. You showed me courage. You showed me what it was like to fight with everything in you despite the negative hand that you’ve been dealt.

You showed me that there is nothing in this world that me or you couldn’t conquer.
You were my backbone while you were here on earth and frankly, you still are even from heaven. You continue to guide me everyday while making sure I continue to make the right choices. You are by my side every step of the way.

So even when life gets overwhelming and becomes to unbearable to handle without my mom here, I sit back and remember, that you are still just as close as ever, right here with me in my heart.
I know you’re watching. I know you’re proud.

I become a little more like you every single day. I become stronger. I become tougher. I become the woman you always knew I could be. I become the woman that you prepared me to be.

So even though it was never your intention that I would need to learn how to live a life without you, you did an amazing job preparing me.

I am forever thankful. You are forever with me. And I will forever and always be your baby girl.

7 hardest days of my life. 6yrs doesn't not seem real. "No matter how long it's been, i suddenly think of u and it gets harder to breath..." I've come along way in regard. But I know I have a ways to go; to be in a better space in regard to you and our last 7 days together. It wasn't natural, it wasn't peaceful. Those details will forever haunt me and weigh me down inside and I deeply work toward freedom within, break these chains.

Happy 64th birthday Mom. We miss and love you dearly and deeply with our every breath and heart beat.

We thank God for finding your sister. How ironic and amazing that you both were only a year apart and in so many ways, it's as if you guys were twins. You were always in the hospital as a patient, she was in the hospital as a Nurse. You both had 3 children, two girls and a son whose name was Jeremy. Your husband and her brothers name are both Tom. You both look so much alike, have the exact same penmanship, voice, sentiment, strength; I could go on...

I NEED to meet with ‪#‎TheresaCaputo‬, ‪#‎LongIslandMedium‬. I desperately need some form of peace from that 7Day chain of events!!! I block everything out now-a-days, I know not the healthiest, but that is my survival with it for now and to stay focused for myself, my kiddos, and continuing forward to thrive*** I think meeting with ‪#‎Theresa‬, can ‪#‎HELP‬ this process‪#‎DEEPLY‬* This is ‪#‎mywish‬

Dear Mom....Happy Birthday...you are in a very special place....together-forever-earth-and in-heaven. Our Heavenly Angel..

In over 2 years, I have seen some of my clients with major health crisis or struggle; who had major support from their family and friends and it's clear the difference it makes!

 My MS client whom from waste down has no movement, her left hand has minimal movement- she says if it wasn't for her amazing friends and family suppport, she could not do this every day. It makes me so happy to see this!

It also hurts my heart that my mom had none of that. At her darkest hours no one was around. It's no wonder she wanted the lights off and a gun at times to take her pain and misery away. It's no wonder she didn't make it out of the darkness. She tried, she wanted her family support and wanted her friends, she wanted her family around.... she tried so many times....and then would give up again...she simply couldn't pull through long enough, without consistent support love encouragement attention time, from the ones she needed the most. My heart bleeds for this.

I alone couldn't save her. She needed a support system! Surrounding her constantly. My current client, family is there every day. They take turns. Some fly in for weeks at a time for their turn, some have to bring the kids. They all have jobs responsibilities, some health issues of their own. That doesn't stop them.

Happy Mothers Day! Who I am as a Mother, I owe it all to you Mom! My two children are my world; as we were your world! It meant the world for you to stay at home and raise us, as it did for me until both children were in all day school. We made sacrifices because of how much it meant. Helping out in the classroom,  eating lunch at school, being at nearly every event, making each holiday so memorable, so many little things/meaningful and memerable--just to name a few!! Thank you Mom!!! Thank you to my amazing children! I am so very proud of both of you! I'm so honored to be your Mama!! I also love all my extra kiddos/lovebuggs!