Dear Mom....Happy Birthday...you are in a very special place....together-forever-earth-and in-heaven. Our Heavenly Angel..

In over 2 years, I have seen some of my clients with major health crisis or struggle; who had major support from their family and friends and it's clear the difference it makes!

 My MS client whom from waste down has no movement, her left hand has minimal movement- she says if it wasn't for her amazing friends and family suppport, she could not do this every day. It makes me so happy to see this!

It also hurts my heart that my mom had none of that. At her darkest hours no one was around. It's no wonder she wanted the lights off and a gun at times to take her pain and misery away. It's no wonder she didn't make it out of the darkness. She tried, she wanted her family support and wanted her friends, she wanted her family around.... she tried so many times....and then would give up again...she simply couldn't pull through long enough, without consistent support love encouragement attention time, from the ones she needed the most. My heart bleeds for this.

I alone couldn't save her. She needed a support system! Surrounding her constantly. My current client, family is there every day. They take turns. Some fly in for weeks at a time for their turn, some have to bring the kids. They all have jobs responsibilities, some health issues of their own. That doesn't stop them.

Happy Mothers Day! Who I am as a Mother, I owe it all to you Mom! My two children are my world; as we were your world! It meant the world for you to stay at home and raise us, as it did for me until both children were in all day school. We made sacrifices because of how much it meant. Helping out in the classroom,  eating lunch at school, being at nearly every event, making each holiday so memorable, so many little things/meaningful and memerable--just to name a few!! Thank you Mom!!! Thank you to my amazing children! I am so very proud of both of you! I'm so honored to be your Mama!! I also love all my extra kiddos/lovebuggs!

 A more careful examination of the biblical text offers an important insight. The broader context shows that the blessings and bruises believers experience must be understood as part of the process of being conformed to the image of Christ. We may not understand why a person was taken from us in this life, but by faith we can have the assurance that all life experiences work together to make us more like Jesus Christ

When you are broken down...on life support...One breath at a time...to simply survive...When you think you have experienced a living hell...trying to triage all at once...put out 10 fires at a time...tourniquet everyone at once...While holding on for dear life.....One breath at a time...One moment...One day at a time...

When the day comes and you realize you survived...you are breathing and  alive...it feels like a million miles....you can only look up and see the water at the top....she the beams of light from above...One breath...moment ... day at a time...you count every little blessing....

As I write this...I pause to turn Pandora on...from earlier station...and Wind Beneath My Wings is playing---

My heart sinks! I confirm date..as I've tried to avoid any thought

10\26-11/1

Lord, please give me the strength, grace, and focus I need during these next 7 days....

Dear Mom, Happy Birthday. I know you are celebrating in heaven with all our loved ones. I miss all of You here on earth! Love Always and Forever, your Sunshine, PT, Tall Person...