OCT 28th, Day **3

Day 3! 5pm! The time u noticed the sound in your chest & said Aimee come listen! FOCUS FOCUS AVOID DIVERT! THESE HOURS ON THIS DAY ARE EXTREMELY HARD!

‎23 long months!! In MERRI'S NAME!!

Jeremey, Krish, Rissa, etc.. I love you guys with all my soul!! Our hands held tight, as we walk along the rest of this journey; until we all eventually joing hands together in the heavens above~ **When we are all old and wrinkley of cource and peacefully is all we can wish and pray for!!!! Our family, is always together forever, earth and in heaven!! I remember saying that out loud over and over, those last few moments!!! I needed to assure her, that no matter what it's okay and we are together forever!!!


It took me all these months, to finally swallow and release..that JUSTICE can not be served in the way I imagined. All that comes from a law suit against the Doctor, even the hospital, in this particular case, is THEIR INSURANCE cutting a check!! NO AMOUNT OF MONEY CAN EVER EVER JUSTIFY THOSE 7 DAY CHAIN OF EVENTS!! HER LIFE RIPPED AWAY, A HUGE PART OF OUR LIVES RIPPED AWAY!! So, my mission will always be in her name, to advocate as much as I can, to help others, to protect other patients, families, to help hospitals set up a better system to protect and prevent!! To stop these hospitals from closing down and re-opening and continuing the negligent patterns. To make change, and difference, in any way shape form I can, to look at every angle through the justice system, administrative systems ect..that can protect and prevent!!

Mom, I will always be YOUR VOICE!!! YOU WENT UNNOTICED FOR FAR TOO LONG by far too many!! AND THOSE 7 DAYS, YOU DIDN'T PUT UP A FIGHT, YOU DID EVERYTHING YOU WERE ADVISED, EVEN THOUGH YOU HESITATED ON THE NG TUBE AND GOLYTELY, YOU TOOK EVERY SIP I GAVE YOU THE 2ND ROUND SCREW UP*** YOU THEN WENT THE REMAINING DAYS WITH NO VOICE AT ALL!!! YOU COULDN'T EVEN TELL US WHAT YOU WERE THINKING, FEELING, PHYSICALLY FEELING, GIVE US FEEDBACK MEDICALLY, ETC!!! YOUR POOKIE IS GOING TO BE THE BEST NURSE OUT THERE!! SHE TOO WILL BE ADVOCATING IN YOUR NAME, YOUR HONOR!! HELPING AND PROTECTING PATIENTS AND FAMILIES!!

Happy Birthday Mommy!!

The kids and I are sending some special baloons your way, pink and with our special notes to you! We love you so much and miss you so much here on earth! But know you are with us every moment of ever single day, until we all unite in heaven!!!

Love Always and Forever,

Your Sunshine!
Your Pootie-Tootie!
Your Tall Person!
A.J

Ohhh mom!! How much we miss you!! I'd give my all to have just one more night with you!!

22 months!! ALWAYS IN MERRI'S NAME!!

I got to see pictures of Mom's birth sister (her SISTER) and her family!!

I feel deeply touched!! I feel WOW!! I see a lot of resemblence!! They eyes especially, the grin, the chin, and the nose even! She has 3 children also, and 5 grandkids, and her youngest son is named: Jeremy!!!! TOO!!! Oh mommy, I miss you so much!!! I feel so grateful to have united your sister to our family, to you, through YOU!!! I promise I will give my all to allowing a connection between you two, to flourish, to grow so close, through all of US, through YOU!!! Eart and Heavenly connected!!! You two have so much in common, your personalities even!!! WOW WOW WOW!!

21 Months!! In Merri's NAME!!!

I just read another note from my mother's birth sister, Susan! This came on a divine day! Mom, I miss you dearly and I am so grateful.. 21 months later I am able to cope, without all that PTSD symptoms that consumed me! ALWAYS IN YOUR NAME! EVERY BREATH, EVERY SECOND, EVERY MINUTE, EVERY SINGLE DAY!! TILL WE JOIN HANDS IN HEAVEN! TOGETHER FOREVER, EARTH AND IN HEAVEN! HEART & SOUL!!

"George" :(

I am soooo sorry, Mom that we had to lose your special car!! This was meant to stay in our family and I know how much you wanted to have Pookie use it!! My heart breaks for this!! I am devastated for this!!


All I wished for was to find a place to store it!! So we could keep it in our family, as you so passionately wished for!!!