Friday, November 1, 2019

10 years today๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿคข๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜‡

Nov 1st- is officially here-10 years๐Ÿ’”.
Doesn’t seem real that it’s been this long๐Ÿฅบ.
I know your at peace and with our loved ones๐Ÿ’“. 
And waiting for all of us to run into your arms- as if time has never passed and when we are all whole again❣️ 
Heaven is for real and this gives me comfort. No other place I would have rather been- then at your side those 7 tragic days- as wounded as we both got. I’d do it again in a heartbeat❣️
So thankful God blessed us with finding your sister, our Aunt Susan๐Ÿฆ‹๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’“ 

She is the closest thing we have to you and your both nearly identical twins⭐️❣️I can’t wait for you to meet her too. I know you already have through us and vice versa๐Ÿ’“❣️https://youtu.be/zCvgXw-Bh04

2019

Oh Mom- so much has transpired. I had to focus the past 4 years on saving my baby girl. More so the past 8 months. This has definitely consumed my time and energy. And with no regrets! As you never did!!

She is thriving again and has a new appreciation on life and family. I get snuggles through out the day, holding hands, I love you’s, climbing into bed like I used to do with you. I’m soaking every moment of it in. I cherish every moment. 

I thank God over and over that We survived it! That she is with us and has a 2nd chance at life- as she deserves!! And that beyond- we are thriving again. Baby boy got his diploma early and is working. He may want to do forest fire fighting. I know you have so much to be proud of in all of us. 

I’m now able to think of you more often and not be consumed in those horrific details we both endured together.

We are nearing 10 years! I can’t believe it!!! So much has happened since you went to Heaven. I’m so glad your in Heaven and I now know how real it is. This provides me with so much peace. And I don’t fear death like before. I just pray our passings can be peaceful. Our family has endured too much tragedy. This is my prayer for death when it’s our time. And I pray I am around as long as possible- as my kids NEED Me!

As we always needed you!

I thank God over and over for Aunt Susan! She is the closest thing we have to you!! I know you will be waiting at the heavenly gates to wrap her in your arms. She has grown to know you through all of us and wow you guys are like twins in so many ways! Breaks her heart she didn’t get the chance to know you while on earth. Stupid adoption laws!  But she now knows you through our hearts and