Saturday, October 29, 2011
Day 4**
I find myself looking at the time on my phone and briefly flashing through those brutally vivid details and then diverting back to: the moment of the day and some of the great challenge that exists (which actually helps me divert).
Friday, October 28, 2011
OCT 28th, Day **3
Day 3! 5pm! The time u noticed the sound in your chest & said Aimee come listen! FOCUS FOCUS AVOID DIVERT! THESE HOURS ON THIS DAY ARE EXTREMELY HARD!
Saturday, October 1, 2011
23 long months!! In MERRI'S NAME!!
Jeremey, Krish, Rissa, etc.. I love you guys with all my soul!! Our hands held tight, as we walk along the rest of this journey; until we all eventually joing hands together in the heavens above~ **When we are all old and wrinkley of cource and peacefully is all we can wish and pray for!!!! Our family, is always together forever, earth and in heaven!! I remember saying that out loud over and over, those last few moments!!! I needed to assure her, that no matter what it's okay and we are together forever!!!
It took me all these months, to finally swallow and release..that JUSTICE can not be served in the way I imagined. All that comes from a law suit against the Doctor, even the hospital, in this particular case, is THEIR INSURANCE cutting a check!! NO AMOUNT OF MONEY CAN EVER EVER JUSTIFY THOSE 7 DAY CHAIN OF EVENTS!! HER LIFE RIPPED AWAY, A HUGE PART OF OUR LIVES RIPPED AWAY!! So, my mission will always be in her name, to advocate as much as I can, to help others, to protect other patients, families, to help hospitals set up a better system to protect and prevent!! To stop these hospitals from closing down and re-opening and continuing the negligent patterns. To make change, and difference, in any way shape form I can, to look at every angle through the justice system, administrative systems ect..that can protect and prevent!!
Mom, I will always be YOUR VOICE!!! YOU WENT UNNOTICED FOR FAR TOO LONG by far too many!! AND THOSE 7 DAYS, YOU DIDN'T PUT UP A FIGHT, YOU DID EVERYTHING YOU WERE ADVISED, EVEN THOUGH YOU HESITATED ON THE NG TUBE AND GOLYTELY, YOU TOOK EVERY SIP I GAVE YOU THE 2ND ROUND SCREW UP*** YOU THEN WENT THE REMAINING DAYS WITH NO VOICE AT ALL!!! YOU COULDN'T EVEN TELL US WHAT YOU WERE THINKING, FEELING, PHYSICALLY FEELING, GIVE US FEEDBACK MEDICALLY, ETC!!! YOUR POOKIE IS GOING TO BE THE BEST NURSE OUT THERE!! SHE TOO WILL BE ADVOCATING IN YOUR NAME, YOUR HONOR!! HELPING AND PROTECTING PATIENTS AND FAMILIES!!
It took me all these months, to finally swallow and release..that JUSTICE can not be served in the way I imagined. All that comes from a law suit against the Doctor, even the hospital, in this particular case, is THEIR INSURANCE cutting a check!! NO AMOUNT OF MONEY CAN EVER EVER JUSTIFY THOSE 7 DAY CHAIN OF EVENTS!! HER LIFE RIPPED AWAY, A HUGE PART OF OUR LIVES RIPPED AWAY!! So, my mission will always be in her name, to advocate as much as I can, to help others, to protect other patients, families, to help hospitals set up a better system to protect and prevent!! To stop these hospitals from closing down and re-opening and continuing the negligent patterns. To make change, and difference, in any way shape form I can, to look at every angle through the justice system, administrative systems ect..that can protect and prevent!!
Mom, I will always be YOUR VOICE!!! YOU WENT UNNOTICED FOR FAR TOO LONG by far too many!! AND THOSE 7 DAYS, YOU DIDN'T PUT UP A FIGHT, YOU DID EVERYTHING YOU WERE ADVISED, EVEN THOUGH YOU HESITATED ON THE NG TUBE AND GOLYTELY, YOU TOOK EVERY SIP I GAVE YOU THE 2ND ROUND SCREW UP*** YOU THEN WENT THE REMAINING DAYS WITH NO VOICE AT ALL!!! YOU COULDN'T EVEN TELL US WHAT YOU WERE THINKING, FEELING, PHYSICALLY FEELING, GIVE US FEEDBACK MEDICALLY, ETC!!! YOUR POOKIE IS GOING TO BE THE BEST NURSE OUT THERE!! SHE TOO WILL BE ADVOCATING IN YOUR NAME, YOUR HONOR!! HELPING AND PROTECTING PATIENTS AND FAMILIES!!
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