Dear Mom..

The final day, day 7******* In Merri's NAME, OH HOW I LOVE AND MISS AND NEED YOU MOM!

I feel so empty inside, regarding! I long for the day where I can feel some healing, peace, and closure; but this day for me, doesn't seem to exist! Maybe when justice is officially served, maybe then I can feel something different then what I feel, even one year later! Maybe! I hope!! Hope ...and pray is all I can continue to do, as I continue to strive toward feeling different, feeling better (in regards)! My personal struggle, seems like a lifetime struggle I am left with!

On the flip side, I feel so blessed, grateful, and happy for my health, life, my children, my family, my dearest friends! The valuable lessons I continue to learn and the amazing life exeriences (good and bad), Aha moments, new insights, I could go on and on! I count my blessings every single day!!